BAD START

Today was not good, not good at all. This is so horrible i just can't believe that i ate this much!

Today for breakfast i had a piece of peanut butter toast.....
then for a snack i had like two pieces of bead with A TON of jam and butter on them, i guess that doesn't happen everyday though (due to a ladies birthday in the office)
Then i had lunch this was OK i had two bites of a turkey and cheese sandwich
Then (this is where it gets really bad) i had a shake for dinner great right, if only i could of stopped eating. then i had three handful of pretzels then i had seven little cookies THEN i had three bites of my friends Chinese dinner that was A BILLION calories....

so by my calculation i will have had in the area of about 1800 calories!!!!!!!!

What a horrible day i forgot to take my vitamin and i forgot to drink very much water. BUT on the other hand i did swim laps in the pool for about an hour by the end i wasn't about ready to die but i wasn't breathing as easy as i normally do. So all in all this was just one of those days minus the fact that i ALWAYS have these kind of days!!!! I HAVE TO STOP THIS!!!!

Hello

Hey this is Maddie, i created this blog to help me with my weight. Hopefully because of this blog I'll finally lose my last six pounds! I need this, for my own self-esteem you know i feel like I'm the fat girl in the office and i just don't want to feel that way any more, but the only problem with this is that i don't eat as healthy as i need to and i am quite sick of it. Unfortunately i just can't pull myself together i am FALLING APART!